It was the dead space between Christmas and New Year’s, that limp week where the calendar has days on it but nobody’s using them. Most people were off. A few of us weren’t – single, no kids, no one waiting at home, the kind of guy who collects a paycheck in that stretch without anyone checking whether he earns it. That was me.
The night before, some of the guys from the office had gone out and I’d gone with them, and it ran late the way those nights do when nobody has a reason to go home. I woke up wearing most of yesterday, head pounding, mouth like carpet. I drank a glass of water at the sink, waited for it to do something, and decided a cold walk would fix what the water couldn’t. My exact thought, and I remember it because the universe has a sense of humor, was that a brisk lap around the park would get me ready to survive the day.
I pulled on clothes off the floor, grabbed my jacket, and went out into the cold. The sun sat low behind a flat sheet of cloud, bright enough to tell me it wasn’t mid-morning yet, weak enough that it didn’t warm anything. The park was the usual crowd of usual faces, all of us out chasing the same pointless 10,000 steps.
By the pond my head had started to come back to me – a dozen mallards sitting on the water like they owned it – and I was half-watching my own feet when they all went up at once. Wings slapping, no lead bird, no warning I could see. I actually stopped. I remember thinking, with the deep clarity of a man still slightly drunk, that I didn’t remember the ducks coming out drinking with us the night before. Then I swayed, and it wasn’t the beer.
Something came up through the ground. I felt it in my feet first, then my shins, then it climbed my spine and settled in my jaw and the backs of my teeth – a pressure more than a shake, like standing too close to a speaker playing a note too low to hear. I told myself it was the hangover, because that was the explanation I had. Then it came again, the same climb, feet to teeth, and this time the headache lifted clean off me, gone between one breath and the next. Dead sober, standing by a pond, watching the last of the ducks clear the treeline.
My phone buzzed in my pocket. I pulled it out and there was nothing – no message, no missed call, a blank screen. That was when I noticed the sound underneath the sound. The normal noise of the city had been swapped out for alarms, stacked on each other, near and far, none of them agreeing on anything.